CFC SFL Finland
Attending conferences is one of my vows in showing my gratitude to our Almighty God for all the blessings and graces He has given and still doing for me. Each conference that I attend to brought thousand blessings in my favor. However, this year’s CFC-FFL European Mega Conference gives me a quiet different level of blessings.
The Mega Conference was splendid and I had a wondrous blissful experience. I never imagined that after the mega conference I would encounter the toughest problem in my entire life. I felt helpless, wounded and betrayed. I almost want to quit from the community to be honest. It was so hard for me to do my service while carrying a heavy burden in my heart. Mahirap po pla magserve kay God kung meron kang mabigat na personal problem. Pero nagpakatatag po ako and I prayed harder. It was not easy and I never understood it. There were times that I felt alone. Minsan naiisip ko po kung totoo ba talaga ang pangyayari or baka nananaginip lang ako. But of course, it was real. I have to embrace it and need to pray even more.
During those times, God was my only consolation and strength. My only prayer was that may God give me the wisdom to understand the whole situation and maipakita po nya sa akin ang kagandahang maidudulot ng pinagdadaanan ko. Eventhough it was so hard, there was no other way out than to deal and find solution in my problem. Pagkatapos ko pong nagawa yung mga dapat kong gawin, I surrendered everything to God. I let go and let God.
At this moment, there is no closure regarding my problem. But one thing is for sure: I know God is with me and as the song goes, “ it will be my joy to say, your will, your way, always.”
I know time will come that everything will be back in normal. In time, I only need to trust fully in Him. As I reflected on this, I realized that God has CHOSEN me to experience this BROKENNESS in order for me to be GIVEN away. This is His way of shaping me and letting know the world how GREAT and AWESOME HE IS.
I am still here, standing firm, ready to do His will, no matter what it takes. Thank you Lord for this experience. To God Be the Glory!