By Karen Garcia
I’m so blessed to attend WSC this year. Aside from this is only my 2nd time following my 1st WSC in Batangas last year, this event was so unexplainable ’cause God indeed surprised me during this entire congress. All my questions, doubts & worries were answered by God. Iinspite of being a servant in the community, I still found myself vulnerable in committing sins. And these sins cause me to turn myself away from God. Everytime I commit sins I say to myself, “Ano pa ang mukhang maihaharap ko sa Panginoon kung sa kabila ng pagsisilbi ko ay gumagawa pa din ako ng kasalanan? Di ba wala na?” But I realized that the more I drove myself away from Him, the more He pulls me towards Him. And also, there are moments when I’ve said or done something not good & not according to God’s will, nasasabi ko na lang, “Sana di ko na sinabi o ginawa yun. Sana di na ako nakasakit ng kapwa ko”. But still, God continues to forgive me inspite all those sins I’ve made.
And I felt so loved during this year’s WSC through the talks I’ve heard pati during the LBS session lalo na at first time ko na mag-facilitate ng Liturgical Bible Study group on my own. Kahit kinakabahan & I felt a little unworthiness to reflect on God’s word, hinayaan ko na lang si Lord na gamitin ako para mai-share ko sa mga brothers and sisters na aking na-meet for the 1st time from different places.
And when the prayer session came on the 2nd night, I was afraid to pray and confess all my sins to God through our brothers & sisters that lined up with lamps. At first, I hesitated to stand and came over a sister near us to pray me over. Grabe iniisip ko kasi, pag sinabi ko yun, baka magalit o mainis siya sa akin sa mga sasabihin ko o di kaya, maiba na ang tingin niya sa akin after marinig ang mga kasalanan ko. But the Lord is insisting me to do so, kaya tumayo na ako & went straight to that sister nervously thinking all the possible things she might say. But when I’m with that sister, naiba ang lahat ng pag-aalala ko kasi kahit kinakabahan, I can’t help myself to say all my inner thoughts, doubts & worries to ease the heavy load I’m carrying in my heart. At dahil dun naiiyak ako ng sobra habang nagsasalita, especially when she embraced me & say some empowering words and prayers. Those words and prayers that sister said to me, I believe that it was not from her own but from our God. It was like my own moment with God. He only used her to comfort me from all my worries and fears.
I was also touched when this sister told God’s message for me: ” My Child, I’m forgiving you from all your wrongdoings”. What alleviated my tears was this line in the prayer for me by that sister, “Lord, may you allow her to be chaste and practice not to see or do things that are against Your will”. And after I’m prayed over, I felt peace in my entire being, inside and out.
Truly after this congress, challenges cannot be easily swiped out in a snap. Andyan pa rin yan, di mawawala yan. It is still you who gets to decide if you are to give up or not to these problems. But I believe that practicing yourself to LivePure will not be also easy, cause temptations may come along the way, but always remember that “Christ is Enough”. He will be the one to bless you from your turning away from sins and bring yourself closer to Him. Indeed, “No turning back!”
As of today, I’m continuing to apply all my learnings not only from this congress, but all the things I’ve learned since when I’m still in the Kids and Youth, and most especially now that I’m now in SFL. And I can see that when I share my thoughts to other brothers & sisters, I can just say I’m making myself an inspiration for them to also share God’s greatness to their lives. And as I grow, I can feel how God is molding me to be His evangelizer of His Word. Sa kung anong paraan, di ko alam. Basta ang alam ko, si Lord destined me and my family to be His servants through this community, CFCFFL.