By Ghie Vergara
CFC SFL Cubao
(Note: This sharing is an output of the Spiritual Journaling workshop done last Committed Servants Weekend of CFC SFL NCR.)
I remember last Friday, I was very anxious and disturbed most especially sa work. Hindi ko alam kung ano mangyayari sa CSW and sa mga workloads ko. Then, I was asked na maging part ng music min on the said retreat and I said “Yes”. Grabe ka Lord, you always know what are my strengths and weaknesses. You always believe in me kahit na sobrang hirap ako and I, myself don’t believe in my capabilities. Thank you Lord for this privilege to serve you through music. Well, isa sa mga happiness effect ko ay si Jely. You know how much I love her and how I love to see her serving You. Sobrang saya ko nung sumama sya sa CSW (though alam ko naman somehow I forced her hahaha). Nagulat ako nung sya mismo nagsabi na magseserve sya ulit last Saturday. Kayo na po ang gumawa ng way on how she can serve You fully. Alam ko naman pong hindi Nyo sya pababayaan.
Tapos Lord, alam mo ba nagshare ako sa second talk. I admit, napressure ako at natakot kasi may mga hesitations pa ko kung dapat ba talaga akong magshare. Iniisip ko rin si Jely kasi may mga hindi pa rin syang alam tungkol sakin. But Your grace gave me the courage to stand in front of Your servants that’s why I shared my stories to them. I was thinking na maging structured yung sharing ko pero pagtayo ko sa harap, it was You who led me sa sharing. I felt so much relieved after ko magshare. Ang galling lang because You always remind that You alone is enough. Yes, ongoing pa rin yung struggles ko sa family but Your grace keeps me going. Alam mo Lord na hopeful pa rin ako na magiging maayos ang family namin in Your perfect time.
Basta Lord wag mo kong bibitawan kahit na nasasaktan ako or nahihirapan ako. Bless us all, Your servants, so that we may serve You in the best and holy way we can. Love You Lord!