By Rhodeline Pontesor
CFC SFL Novaliches
(Note: This sharing is an output of the Spiritual Journaling workshop done last Committed Servants Weekend of CFC SFL NCR.)
What’s the essence of having the gift of wisdom and understanding God’s message as clear as a purified water if I don’t accept the plans He has for me. Right from the start, what I envisioned are clear. But I blinded my own eyes because the things that are happening is different from what I want to see. His voice was clear but I made myself deaf because what I heard is different from what I want to hear. Even before I ask, all answers are clear. But I made it blurred because I want to trust my own understanding. In the end, I am the one who’s hurting. I am hurting from the things that I myself made. I have lots of fears and doubts so I tried to runaway from Him.
But God made me feel that I am still worthy of Him. He made me realize that the grace He has for me is sufficient. I am deserving for a total and lasting happiness. Truly, when God calls you, you can run, you can hide, but you can’t escape from His love. In the end, you will return to Him. And now that I return, it’s now time to trust Him and don’t manipulate the gifts He has given to me.