by Melot Atenista, SFL Marbel
Chasing happiness is undoubtedly one of the reasons man live. Growing up, I have been searching for my own happiness. I’ve always thought I wasn’t good enough and that I don’t belong even if I have my barkadas with me. I’ve always come to believe that I am second place in life. I have always had the desires for happiness, love and belongingness and so I have this insane desire to prove that I’m worthy enough. I’ve tried finding it through making people around me happy, letting them make decisions for me in my life and always trying to win their favor.
I thought I was happy. But no matter how big my achievements were, whether in academics or service in the community, there’s would always be an emptiness residing in my heart.
But God loves me and is immensely powerful. He did not let my weeping overcome the great person that He is created in me. Last October 2015, He renewed me and He led me to the realization that true happiness can only be found in God alone. He took away my every brokenness and He replace my heart with. I was truly happy, serving Him alone.We do not need to devalue ourselves to find happiness because happiness is within. Narealize ko na, hindi mo na kailangang maghanap pa, pagmamahal niya lang sapat na.
I want to share this happiness to others. Now, I am happily serving our community here in Mindanao and with great desires to make our brothers and sisters find their true happiness in serving God too.